The Count Down Begins

Oh, Happy Day! This is the post I have been waiting and longing to write since the day it was decided I would start coming off my medicine.

Here it is: I am exactly 15 days away from being done with this stuff forever! Yes people, count it out....that puts me at Christmas Eve! What a fun Christmas present!

I'm so excited to be closing the page on this chapter of my life, even though my heart is breaking that Mom isn't here to share it with me. I almost feel like I'm leaving her in that chapter, which is why I've been dragging this out longer than needed.

Honestly, I could have been done with my medicine by Thanksgiving, but it is just so hard to do without her by my side. I stretched the dosage out a little, and delayed closing this part of my life; I feel like it keeps me closer connected to Mom. 

I can't keep myself in that pit though. I need to move on, and let me tell you, this will be huge! Once this chapter is completed I'll feel like a whole new person...so free...so ready to move on with my life...so ready to find myself again.....and that would make Mom happy!

I would ask that you keep me in your prayers, however. I'm petrified that I will end up right back where I started once I'm off the medicine. The past few weeks I've been having some of those same symptoms/feelings again, and it has me spooked. It was never a guaranteed thing that cutting the medicine would be my 'fix all' and I so hope it doesn't back fire on me!

Keeping the faith that this was the best decision! Mom thought it would be best, and she was right about 99.999% of the time....but hey, what Mom isn't? :)